who am I?

This is the start of my journey of trying to figure out who I am and what am I supposed to be doing.  Yes, facts are I am a daughter, a sister, an aunt, a friend to some and most of all a mother.  But the problem is I have spent my entire life feeling like I should be someone else.  Who is that mystery person? Why does she keep creeping up on me like a shadow that dances to the beat of her own drum?  I remember in my Senior year in high school I was asked where I would be in 20 years from then.  My answer was "Living in the City, working in some high rise building with a corner office wearing fabulous clothes and amazing shoes"...Well, 20 years later I am a divorced mother of five, unemployed wearing sweatpants and uggs.  What in the hell happend to my BIG plans?  I will set one thing straight right off the bat and that is I LOVE my kids and have been blessed by my wonderful children.  Now with that being said, what happend to Kellyanne?  I've been doing a lot of pondering as of late and wondering how do I find myself again? How do I reinvent myself and become that woman that I know is living within me? For the past 19 years I have been a mother, a wife, a girlfriend and as of late a lost woman.  Through my writing I am going to become the woman that I can look in the mirror and say "Good morning beautiful, lets rock this world"!!  I have stories to tell, opinions to give and lessons to teach.  Stay tuned, you may just witness a re-birth of the shadow that I've envied my whole life.